Loss

Loss comes in all shapes and forms. Loss of a game,  loss of a friend, saying goodbye to a memory, loss of joy or temporary happiness, loneliness - these may not be life or death situations but there is still a sadness that must be dealt with...

I feel myself dealing with subtle hints of loss today. My friend left and is back home in Belize. I never got to see him but I spent probably 30 minutes speaking with him on the phone. The conversation touched a part of my soul that is only reserved for very special people in my life and when I feel that familiar tug of pain in saying goodbye, I know that he is one of those very special people.

I know I will get an email from him, I know I will hear his voice again, I know I will see him again but it does not change the fact that I miss him. He is not a boyfriend, a lover or an affair, he is just my very dear friend. He knows my heart, he understands my feelings, yearnings and desires.  He knows what goodbye feels like because he feels it too.

I haven't really lost anything tangible but I feel a sadness just the same. He said that he heard a song that reminded him of me and he remembered times we spent together. He said he does not want anything to change our friendship. He has his own world,  his own life and we are separated by tangible miles but we are also separated by intangible miles of circumstances.

I say 'goodbye' physically but I am saying 'hello' spiritually because what we share comes from our Creator's heart. We have forever to be together and forever is a long, long time. Eternity holds many wonders and joy unspeakable for all God's children.

I know that even as I grieve from saying 'goodbye', the journey to saying 'hello' is just beginning.  I miss you my friend but I will see you soon.